fallen

i guessed i'm changing day by day. i don't know why too.

-become less motivated for work. late almost everyday. can't even wake up in time even though i got morning calls every morning.
-drifting away from friends. Sometimes i wished i can have someone to talk to, to tell them my unhappiness, my happiness, my stories..but somehow, i think that people will judge me on the things that i've done.
-relationship issue. i guessed this is the first time i'm really talking about this in my blog. feel that i shouldn't hide it anymore. been around a month plus since the break-up. Someone came into my life after the break-up. i've clinged on to the past too stubbornly. i don't know how to let go. i've been slapped with harsh words again and again but i still hold on. that Someone treat me well. He has been there through my weakest times in Genting. He was besides me all along but i'm too blinded in the past to notice his presence. Friends tell me to go for it. i'm afraid. afraid of lots of things. afraid of criticism from people. afraid of perception from others. afraid of hurting him.

yun: was in a loss while on the journey to work this morning. got a sudden urge to msg you.. wanted to tell you lots of things but it got jammed up in my heart.. i also wished we can be back to the innocent-old-us.. no worries.. true there's a gap in between us, which i feel i am the one drifting away from you guys. i've no common topic to talk to you guys.. i can't join into the topic.. i'm stuck in between.. hate the feeling..that's why i'd rather be alone at times..

the feeling now sucks. stuck in the middle again. to go ahead or not to go ahead..? to leave everything behind in such a short period of time?

maybe the next entry will shows...

movie marathon.
watched lots of movies these days.
-Doom.
-Sky High.
-Cello.
-Harry Potter.
-Tom Yum Goong.

waiting for:
-Chicken Little!!! Numa numa lei.
-The Fog.

off day tomorrow. Sakae buffet!!! been craving for it since long long ago. hee..
i will be happy.. really..

The Writer

wanQi.
11 Aug - Leo
not a girl. not yet a woman.
22 going 23.

This is a log of what's happening in my life.

My motto in life is to live life to the fullest. I'm gonna strive hard for my goal!

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