fallen

i'm really torn apart this time.
my eyes, mind and heart are all tired.

i cried for hours.
my voice changed.

i sat somewhere near the playground calming myself.
i didn't want to let anyone see my ugly state.
i didn't want anyone to sympathize with me.

when i finally had enough courage to head home, i found myself breaking down in tears again now. My younger bro was the first to know. when i told him, "wo he ta mei you le"..his reaction was 'HUH?' he went on asking..i couldn't hold back my tears anymore. he finally saw my tears. i couldn't stop.couldn't stop crying now. am now hugging the gior beanies we got from last christmas. it's wet.

i felt so lost all of a sudden. i never feel this hurted before. never feel this weak before. every place, every corners trigger memories of us. the playground, my void deck, my room, my bed, his mattress, our photos...

12th oct. the date we started communicating. my mom's birthday. this coming wed. how how how...

i don't know how i am going to face everyone now.
please don't ask me any thing for it will only deepen my wound.
don't show me any concern because it will only hurt me more.

i just need to be alone.

my life gonna be black & white.

The Writer

wanQi.
11 Aug - Leo
not a girl. not yet a woman.
22 going 23.

This is a log of what's happening in my life.

My motto in life is to live life to the fullest. I'm gonna strive hard for my goal!

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