Sunday, August 01, 2004
8/01/2004 10:23:00 AM

changed my template again. was bored this time. projects crawling all over. not really in the mood to do. my group like not in the mood for projects at all. no one suggested doing. i shall be the one. getting to hate my life. why is it that other people can enjoy themselves and not me.? why is it that i must pretend to be carefree when i am not. left and right, all around me are couples. not that i am desperate or what, but i do need a companion too. pretending not to care when others asked. yesterday, one idiot smsed me.
"now left only you single liao hor. yun and jes get back together liao leh." wtf. i knew they're back together. but do he have to rub salt into my wound.?! replied him. " i know they are back. i enjoy being single. carefree." felt damn insulted. for his info, it's not that i don't have any choices to make. just that, they're not the one. totally pissed off with that sms. though i know he meant nothing, but too bad..he didn't know that that was what i hate to hear most. i simply hate aug. i wished time can stop now. i don't wanna stay home. i don't wanna celebrate national day alone. i don't wanna be left alone. there is this fear inside me. i don't know why i feel like crying as i'm typing. i thought i can survive without love. now, i am wrong. i need to be care for, to be loved, to be doted on. py always tell me i can get better ones. better one never come. those that are here are not the one i like. irritating, slacker, ah beng, clubbing...
maybe i'm just picking bone out of an egg.
while i've some feeling for him, the feeling were not reciprocated. one reason why i enjoy work is because of him. how interesting my life can be. pretending to smile when i am not at all happy. i want to type and type and type and type.

like this song.
"skin on skin"
Just a little bit more love
Just a little bit more passion
This is how it should begin
Skin on skin

[verse 1]
If you leave me now
Telling me you failed somehow
Better think it all over
Just as long as love's around
Here's a true romance
Be aware and take your chance
Tomorrow I'm gonna leave you
But I am here for you tonight

[bridge]
Every single day I want you to know
My love is true
So baby let me show you what to do

[chorus]
Just a little bit more love
Just a little bit more passion
This is how it should begin
Skin on skin

Just a little getting close
Just a little more affection
'Cause I don't think it's a sin
Skin on skin

Don't you know that this game is to play
Just as long as it's time
Can't you see that my heart's gotta know
When you're gonna be mine

Just a little more love
Just a little more love

[verse 2]
So we better get it on
What is here will soon be gone
When the leaves are falling
Then maybe we could fall apart

[bridge 2]
And there may come a time
When you will forget
My love is true
So baby let me show you what to do

[chorus]


i guessed i will be fine later. shall go sleep my time away.
The Writer



wanQi.
11 Aug - Leo
not a girl. not yet a woman.
22 going 23.

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