Wednesday, August 11, 2004
8/11/2004 12:28:00 AM

26 minutes passed. yes. i am 19. felt quite happy. i suppose this will be a simple birthday for me. my mood for the past few days was terrible. i'm glad i am over it.
To: the girls. sorry for being hostile at times. i don't mean it but i really cannot control how i feel. just felt left out at times. i seriously hope that my life will get better. i don't ask for much actually. just a nice guy will do. wahaha. so hard to come by one that is good. will be meeting my classmate, michelle for lunch at Mac tomorrow.! i am crazy over mac these past weeks. lesson at 2pm tomorrow. hoohoo. meeting my girls for dinner @ seoul. hope it will not be a flop. i guess it will not be.
and yes, i've been watching the fireworks recently. watched it 2 sundays ago, last sunday, and yesterday. the Ndp one was probably the nicest one. it was straight in front of me. So clear, so magnificent yet i don't feel anything when i am watching it. xueyin said i look sad while i am watching. hahaha. am i? don't think so. feeling a bit low while i am watching. thought of some things..but, soon recovered after the fireworks ended. was out with mom the past 2 days. and you know what, we held hands while we're at esplanade on sunday. for fear of losing each other due to the crowd. so long since i held her hand. made me feel as if i've returned to my childhood. i really love my family, but i don't even know how to express my love for them. my wishes will be: to find a companion. my family to continue living in harmony. love each other. to save $. to become slimmer without being an 'airport'. to be HAPPY. that's all lah. not alot right.?

one last comment. i was wondering why some people can be so fickle-minded when it comes to relationships. see one, love one. and seem as if they are really in love. so horrible. so disgusted by this kind of people living in this world. feeling very sad for the parents. weird. okay. i am done. happy birthday once again. i'll be happy.

i'd want you to love me.
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