fallen

work was hectic today. was rushing throughout the whole dinner. partnered with a malay guy. i thought i will enjoy partnering with him, but ended up, both of us kenna 'scolded' by one of the guests. the feeling's really bad, to be tell off by the guest in front of the whole table of guests. can feel my face turned red and then black. she said that i shouldn't hold a knife that way, pointing out. but how am i going to hold that knife with that one platter of fish in my hands.? demanding fat lady.! i knew she was unpleased with my partner so i was asked to serve her table instead. who knows once i reached the table, she started her 'wu li qu nao'
yesterday was better. my life was made better. was actually given 2 tables to myself. before the start of the dinner, an auntie was assigned to be with me. she made my life alot easier.
getting a little irritated with the people around me. sometimes i wished they will stop doing things for me, stop saying those things, stop being nice. i'm not trying to act hard to get, but i'm really not interested to start a relationship anymore.
i'm not desperate for honeyed words, nor am i interested to see digusting smses. stuck in the middle. if i reply the sms, it will seem that i'm willing to play along. if i don't reply, he will think that i am angry. what am i to do.? tell him.? i already told him. one seem to make job easier for me during work. another is being very nice, always touched by what he did. as i'm typing, i don't know why, i begin to feel some hatred for them. hatred is too strong a word bah. the feeling of irritated. i guessed this is the first time i post something like that. never really tell anyone what i've been thinking lately. listening to wonderful tonight now. i don't feel wonderful tonight. light off.

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wanQi.
11 Aug - Leo
not a girl. not yet a woman.
22 going 23.

This is a log of what's happening in my life.

My motto in life is to live life to the fullest. I'm gonna strive hard for my goal!

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