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not a bad day today.went for the Fmgt paper at 4pm..the paper sucks..mind totally blank when i looked at the mcqs...sat there thinking...wrote a bit...looking around..started to panick a little when people gradually started leaving at around 5pm...left parts of a question blank..that's 7 marks gone...anyway..i knew i'm not going to do well for it..a pass will do..just 25 marks will do..i am easily contented..

last night: chatted with martin online..left at about 12/1 plus..was lying on the bed..getting ready to sleep.felt nauseous.went to the toilet and vomitted..yucks..back on the bed after that..tried very hard to sleep but couldn't..received ry's sms..called her to chat..chatted for very long?! YES...of course..getting more and more energetic as we chatted..felt so guilty while talking to her..i'm supposed to be sleeping instead of chatting with her...but it's okay..what are friends for? you need me..and so i'll be there..even if it means i'm going to fail my test..haa..chatted until 4am..and i forced myself to sleep.woke up at 10 to study..cannot finish all the lecture notes.
yun: no need to feel guilty about it..at least i know you still remember to sms me..to tell me that you're troubled..hee.at least i still hold a place in your heart..whatever lah..i really treasure all of you..

he called me just now.i knew it was him when my phone rang.this time round, he's cleverer le..know i'll be at home and he called my house..chatted for around an hour..he told me about next sat's event..about bringing me to a place i never been to..pestered him to tell me the place and he said it's Westin hotel...go there for what? hmm..to drink.his friends will be there too..with his gf.so it's a double date.? not sure..it's not confirmed..but he said he's looking forward to it..me too..he told me to wear nicer next sat because we're going to take lots of pictures..haa..crazy.i'm getting to feel something weird now.he told me some stuff just now..i only kept quiet.. perhaps we really need more time. he asked me to talk more about myself since he's always the one talking.told him my weekdays are boring..there's nothing to talk about it..and he said something.."maybe one or two years later, or maybe one month later..i will step into your life"..i kept quiet again..only laughed.he hinted me more than once during this conversation..asking me what song i like..and that he will learn the song on harmonica..and play it for me.. 7 years ago...we were still small kids..he's my first love..our parents know each other.we often go to the playground to play.. 7 years later...our thinkings changed..both of us are looking for serious partners..one that will/may lasts...will he be the one? will history happen again?! i'll go at a slower pace this time..to slowly understand him more..to see if he's the one..for me..

~from this moment on....

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wanQi.
11 Aug - Leo
not a girl. not yet a woman.
22 going 23.

This is a log of what's happening in my life.

My motto in life is to live life to the fullest. I'm gonna strive hard for my goal!

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