fallen

Sunday. i'm not feeling happy again. met up with yun py oli they alll..8 of us.full strength. had dinner at Tanglin Mall Food Court. Teppanyaki. Don't really feel happy yesterday. i got a feeling that i won't be able to continue this relationship anymore...

Was thinking alot these few days...don't dare to tell anyone what i'm thinking. i seriously think that i'm losing my faith in this relationship.maybe ending it earlier will be better to me. i always feel that he don't love me at all. can say that he nv sms or call me nowadays. So in return, i also seldoms sms him..watched Scary Movie 3 with him yesterday. was only wearing skirt and tee and it was Damn COld. Realllly cold..but all he did was to hold me only once..on the cab home, i was holding him very tight as i was really cold.but his reaction was "need to be so kuan zhang or not"..wah, i let go immediately.smsed him "home." when i reached home. never heard from him since then... maybe i am those type of girl who really hope to have lots of attentions from bf.since he cant do that, why should i carry on?

had alot of fun with him..will miss him alot alot if we're going stop here.

he used to say that we'll get marry after this 2 years because his sergeant told him before that if a girl is to wait for him..she's the one. both of us love kids.i used to visualize we 2 together holding our kids...but now, all i think of is how am i to carry on my life without him.maybe i am thinking too far ahead. shall have a talk with him soon. i'm the first of you all to start our relationships and i shall be the first to end it......

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wanQi.
11 Aug - Leo
not a girl. not yet a woman.
22 going 23.

This is a log of what's happening in my life.

My motto in life is to live life to the fullest. I'm gonna strive hard for my goal!

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